So I didn't get the UCB Diversity scholarship again. My application was "deferred to a high number of applicants" but I am invited to reapply in December. My first thought was that I was doing crappy in class but I realize that (a) I got the scholarship once already (b) I am in the highest level before the advanced program begins. So I understand that there are new people who've never even taken a class before. I get it. I do. I'm bummed but I'm not taking this personally. I can always keep up with the practice group my class sort of started. Wow. Look how mature I am.